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Boyhood
Boyhood
Dutch-Ghanaian photographer, Casper Kofi, goes to Aruba and the Netherlands to capture the beauty in boyhood and paradise.
Text by Casper Kofi
Photography by Casper Kofi
Issue 001
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From a young age, I naturally associated certain things with masculinity and saw adult men as being the source of a lot of hardships that my mother or my sisters or my friends went through.
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As a boy, it was difficult for me to relate to masculinity in a positive manner.
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I felt some guilt or had a fear that me being a boy and eventually a man would alienate me from the people that loved me and the people I loved who happened to be women.
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But on the other side, I didn’t feel feminine, like the women I loved. I felt different from them and I express myself differently and I move differently.
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